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Updated: March 28, 2025 by Nick
Medical updates to my recovery:
First off. I got my blood drawn. Twice. It'll be my third as part of the PET CT prep I'll be getting. My left leg hurt and ached, specifically in the thigh area. I couldn't move or rotate it until yesterday, which hopefully should get better by then.
Then my lymph nodes may have acted again, but this time, as of writing, I haven't felt a nosebleed, a clog in my nose, or dizziness. But there are these strange lumps appearing elsewhere and I couldn't feel anything from it but unevenness.
And lastly, my spleen worked itself too much during the treatment and it needs to be diagnosed further, that's why a scan is taking place sometime around next week, and the preparation for it would be unpleasant to say.
I've joined a support group on a Discord server to ask them for anything that can help me to my advantage. Even though these people are sick as well, we try our best to help one another out from our experiences.
That's all for the updates, and now for the entry:
Ever since I got out of the treatment, I've gotten a bit better by then. It's almost April now, and It'll be almost 3 months post-radiotherapy. Believing that wanting to get better is a great move for me should I be well again soon.
During those past months staying in the house while barely going anywhere, I think I lost a lot of good people in my life, really great people, waiting to be found again.
I know they don't care about me that much, since honestly, I'm a background person for them, and I'm not a great deal of a person, nor serve an importance.
In those times, I also lost great communities that I'm in. In it, a great deal of people too who would be there to wish you the best, and good lucks. They're honestly a part of me I want to see in myself again. Childish, never minding, and above all, giving.
It's weird for me to say all these, considering I want to alleviate my boredom aside from watercolor painting (which I'll post here soon), and re-reading a book I've found again (Seven Wonders by Peter Lerangis).
I finished House of Leaves a few weeks ago, It's mind-blowing that in order to tell a great fiction, they go as far as using many pages as possible but leave it blank and bare. Let my sister borrow the book for herself, and she's intrigued by the story so far.
Severance Season 2 was a real treat. Since I'm not keen on theorycrafting and playing the waiting game myself (made that mistake with Dr. STONE), I had to wait until all episodes had aired to watch it seamlessly. I'm sorry Ben Stiller for doing this, I really am.
I think in this season, Helly has gotten even more cuter and prettier than in Season 1. I went apeshit, totally, and overboardly nuts all over most of the episodes on Season 2.
Couldn't stop talking about it all day though. I think it annoyed people yeah.
Have no idea how to do the spoilers thing here yet to see my takes on it, so you better go watch it for yourself why don't you?
While all of this is happening, life has been extremely lonely for me. Very lonely.
Very numbing too.
All the conning I see on social medias.
All the fear tactics and mongering to make us feel scared.
All the sanctity, the respect in life is no longer cared for.
And is in danger. Our lives too.
While the people on our feeds tell us to be scared because they say:
"_____ is going to _____ and you might be next. Lets try to stop this. Someone tried to, and they've been _____, and ______, with _____."
Fill in the blanks yourself, but this is the summary of what I've been getting alongside activist content. Can't erase it, can't reset it, I'm like part of the system now. It's getting on my nerves, I had to quit.
Result of my anger I can't tell my family about, otherwise they'd be opinionated. I'm afraid they won't accept what comes out of my mouth, and force me to advocate theirs instead.
I'll see you once again sometime. I hope we catch up!