In Recovery. What's Next For Me?

Updated: February 16, 2025 by Nick

It's been over a week since I got out of the treatment. The whole, chemo-radiation thing that I got which lasted for 6 months after I got diagnosed. Honestly, my next step is to come back to school, tell my classmates to suck it because they weren't there for me, and graduate, then worry about the future future employment later in life.

Since I got out, things got lonely again, numbness is coming back again, like it's the only thing waiting for me. But that won't be it for long, as I'm still in recovery, going outside isn't a thing yet for me, and when I do, I'm ready to see the world like I should've done long time ago.

Honestly, to tell you the truth, I was never myself during those treatments, I felt like I was close to dying even, and to this day I still worry about it, and yet those worries are disappearing bit by bit until eventually, all I have left is nothing but a sense of happiness, wherever I might find it.

Another honest truth, I write essays like these but never found a direction on where I'd take it. I'm a lost cause, and I feel like addressing this once I recover fully, including my sense of taste that I've lost getting radiation.

It's been nice knowing any of you who stuck by me during this time, and although I may not reply to some, that's because I've been in a cancer treatment, and I have no time responding to any messages at all.

Anyways, take care of yourself, I hope you won't end up like me here. Brutally struggling.