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Updated: November 18, 2024 by Nick
Even before I'm being treated for this cancer, I've been mentally unwell, apart from what I see on the internet, and so too is my anger issues. I don't understand why I'm affected, when anyone else seems fine. I guess I never knew the meaning of relaxation, turning my body into gooey numbness. Maybe I've been raised in a wrong school, or had bad friends, but if you ask me, my old friends were a bunch of mess anyway.
Now that I'm older, and distant from my childhood home, the place I grew up in has changed, from being the quiet town I knew to love, had rightfully turned into a hard, solid rock where everyone from across the country is in it. It was crowded, loud, and suffocating. I had to move.
After that, it was just me, my mom and dad, and my brother, but sometimes, my sisters comes to visit, and anyone else too, known or unknown. To them, it was peace, but to me, there's nothing really going on here, except it's a touristy spot. Now I don't know about that, but it's just a couple of attractions, expensive restaurants, and Airbnb's I wouldn't even book because this place is enough.
So I did what others do when there is no third place reserved for them, and that is to go on a silly trip on the internet, trying to find what inspires me, yet it just happens to coincide with a Middle-eastern conflict I've had my ass dragged into. Watching everyone on my feed report the news with a solemn, and aggressive tone really puts me on my nerves, and overtime, it's turned into those people begging.
Those people saying I'm responsible for them, held liable if I skipped, didn't use their audio, clicked the 4 buttons, even though I didn't understand what I did, it's a bunch of baloney.
Personally, I don't trust these types of people, maybe they're running a scam, maybe the money is going elsewhere instead of them. I have my reasons why I'm not giving a cent, but If I were to go and help these people, I'd make sure to get them fed, blanketed, have a place to stay. Help out big, not small.
Other than me being upset at those people begging, I'm even more upset at those who oppress them, because they started the Middle-eastern debacle, and because they shelled places they shouldn't, did things they shouldn't, and bulldozed and took over lands they shouldn't.
If you know what I'm talking about, you'll probably say "Oh you're still responsible because you refuse to help these people..." I DIDN'T SAY ABOUT REFUSING TO HELP, I'M ONLY SAYING WHAT I KNOW, BECAUSE IT MAKES ME GET OFF SOCIAL MEDIA AND DETOX ANYWAY.
Shoutout to Rox, Isobel, Jupiter, Luciux, and Erik for being the #1 perpetrators of pissing me off. They have no say about mental health, but why should they? I already know what they'll say anyway, and that is to grow up, suck it up, and live with it.
Is my feed fucked? Yes, even if I reset it on the app it still goes back to them and nothing changes.