My Recovery So Far

Updated: March 4, 2025 by Nick

Hello everyone, I know it's been quite a long time since I created the previous entry. Time really flies so fast when you don't know about it. I want to ask how you are not just as a reader of this entry, but a very special friend as well.

I might not meet you eye to eye, talk face to face, what matters is that you're viewing this right now, probably subscribed, or have followed my social media pages, possibly written my guestbook, or perhaps donated, all that stuff.

While recovering up to this point, to cure my boredom while I wait for my strength and my sense of taste to come back, I have decided to do quite a few things, and those are:

1. Read a book
- The Longest Summer by Brian Fagan is an example as to why I don't want to read a history book. Because overtime, some content in those pages might be outdated, like now, the Vikings were the first to step into North America, not some theorized cavemen or Chris Columbus, or some guy we don't know about.

- I'm anticipating to get a copy of House of Leaves this week from my sister. Since everyone else is reading it, studying it for years, I might as well give it a try. Thanks Night Mind for recommending me this book. I want to experience something new when it comes to book reading.

- As a kid, I used to read and got all the book volumes for Seven Wonders by Peter Lerangis. I fell in love with the characters, its visual arts, and now I don't know where it went. If I had to throw in my biggest wish, Seven Wonders should be adapted into a TV series.

2. Do some art/painting
- I mostly do my art on computer since I'm more experienced in graphic designs, preferably using PowerPoint to design everything Daswagger. From the logo designs, thumbnails, and this website as well. I find it easier to use PowerPoint as a design tool than a presentation tool. But, I'm more open on using other design programs, if it's good enough, or the people I work with use such a thing.

3. Write a journal
- THIS is not a journal. But what I keep physically IRL is indeed a journal. I document my recovery from the time I'm able to write longer sentences and paragraphs, until it runs out of space and I have to store it somewhere I won't see it again in a periodic amount of time.

- It consists of just how am I basically, how is my health holding up, even though I have joined a cancer support group on Discord, I still need someplace to log things just in case a doctor needs to look at my symptoms.

4. Exercise and Challenges
- Currently, I'm somewhat okay with cardio work, and I know I can't run very far, or I'll tire myself much quicker than in earlier stages of my recovery, to which I'd almost pass out, while keeping my consciousness alive. I don't want to pass out, and wake up in unknown lands.

- These past few weeks, I have been challenging myself on eating foods that I haven't ate in so long since getting radiation therapy. Since, it targeted my head and neck, it also targeted my tongue, which resulted in me having a loss of taste. Doctors say it'll go back in 6 months max. But as for me, I'm already feeling some of my senses much earlier than expected.

So... what now?
While I'm in the stage of recovery now, and have been scheduled for checkups, doctors putting fancy cameras up my nose, a CT-scan, I can assume that this thing on my neck won't go back and stays that way, possibly forever. Making me cancer free is my highest priority right now so I can enjoy life again to the fullest.

I'm worried that the lymph nodes remained from the whole entire treatment grows back, and potentially marking me for death. That's it.

Anyways, this is the end of today's current entry. I'll update when I can. Thanks!

ADDRESSING THE OBVIOUS
Why am I overwriting my entries instead of saving them in an archive?

These entries represent my mood and feeling at that time, if I want to check myself up psychiatrically, I'd do it in a form of test. Sure, there are also 3rd parties archiving this too, but that's because they're doing what they're made to do.

Archiving isn't even my thing anyway, and it costs storage. And when it costs storage like an SSD, or a hard drive, it's likely that it's going to break in like years or so.

For anyone who wants to see an archived entry of this site, your best bet would be someone with a word document of what I've written for so long, or the Wayback Machine.

I'm sorry and I deeply apologize that it has to be this way.